"What am I doing?"

My intention for this trip is to keep an online journal for those few who may care to know what I am doing. So here it is. This journal has to start somewhere and this seemed to be a good time...(sitting on my bed at the radisson hotel by the airport in toronto.) Tomorrow I fly out of that airport and will be in Amsterdam the next morning.
Since february so much of my time has been devoted to thinking about, planning, and explaining and discussing with others what I will be doing. I'm weary of that now and I just want to go. At least I am all packed and have been since last wednesday since we took a little Canada family vacation before hand, which was probably one of my family's smarter moves. My last moments with them are not then spent being stressed about packing and keeping w/in the weight limit (which proved to be a big challenge).
So maybe I should write about my feelings about this trip. I'm excited and of course a little aprehensive. But honestly I just want to go and experience it, I've done enough imagining it. I will try to sleep tonight but as tired of thinking about it as I am, it probably won't stop me now that I am finally less than 24 hours away!! So here it goes...